Don't Give Up

This is really nice...

One day I decided to quit...
I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality... I wanted to quit my life.
I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.

"God", I asked, "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?"
His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"

"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light.

I gave them water.

The fern quickly grew from the earth.

Its brilliant green covered the floor.

Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo.
In the second year the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful.
And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed.

But I would not quit.
In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would
not quit." He said.
"Then in the fifth year a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared
to the fern it was seemingly small and insignificant...But just 6
months later the bamboo rose to over 100 feet tall.
It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong and gave it what it needed to survive.
I would not give any of my creations a challenge it could not handle."
He asked me. "Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling, you have actually been growing roots".

"I would not quit on the bamboo.

I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others."

He said.

"The bamboo had adifferent Purpose than the fern.

Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me.

"You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?"

I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned.
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and brought back this story.

I hope these words can help you see that God will never give up on you.
Never, Never, Never Give up.
For the Christian Prayer is not an option but an opportunity.
Don't tell the Lord how big the problem is,
tell the problem how Great the Lord is!

What do I expect

Is fear part of the stages of grief? Because that is what i am feeling right now.

Last night, I found myself in the same situation 2 years ago. 2 years ago I felt like it was the end of the world. I had a reason to cry and be depressed since it was not really my choice. But this time, there is pressure surrounding me. That I have been here and so I should be stronger. I should be able to handle this situation without asking for help. That this time I SHOULD BE BETTER.

But sometimes, I just want to curl up in a corner and just give up. Sometimes, I want to pull time so it will be faster so I can skip a few months, fast forward to when my dream is finally coming true.

Haay...i am now at the point where I don't really want to listen to love songs and I don't want to see people in love. I am bitter.

Positive

I need to think positive at all times. No matter how discouraging a situation is. A lot of circumstances have been leading me to follow positive thinking. Be it on books and tv shows. It's great that I was able to catch up Sharon last sunday.

Changed

It's only now that I have learned that Omeprazole has the same healing effect as esomeprazole. I also learned about the use of Ranitidine 300 on Nocturnal acid breakthrough.

It really is an advantage to attend journal clubs, product presentation, and seminars. And while the speaker was triumphantly convincing me about their products, I said to myself for the very first time that I love my work. And I don't think I will be satisfied with any other job in pharmacy. Hospital pharmacy is really the best if you want to reach out to people. i may be a difficult pharmacist when it comes to my attitude towards equally difficult customers but I am trying to change that. It just feels great knowing that a patient is able to acquire medicines for is/her illness and hopefully they get better.

I also remembered all those times that i am pressured at work and how God finally answered my prayers and put me in an area where there is a different kind of pressure.

I guess it's really true that your life is what your thoughts make it. From now on, I will only think of all the positive things that can and will happen in my life.