Plunge In

I am afraid of a lot of things yet I cannot escape pain. People reject me, few loves me. I'm tired of forcing others to like me. So from now on, i will just enjoy being me. I will enjoy everything that happens to me. I will look at the bright side of life.

Today is the day.=)

Almighty Go Jun Pyo

It's been a while...anyway, I'm so into Boys Over (or Before) Flowers and I saw this online...just sharing this to all fellow followers=)

Isang Daan Para sa Kinabukasan

Isang Daan Para sa Kinabukasan
Joint Project of UPPGHMountaineering Club and UPPGHBIKERS
Your passions help define you. Be it on mountains climbing or biking, as long as you are passionate with what you do, you’ll get to know more the inner you. Two groups of people are aware of this and they even take a step further
The UPPGHMC and Bikers have launched the “Isang Daan Para sa Kinabukasan”, a project for the benefit of the students of Satio Iñigan Elementary School at Barangay San Rafael, Monatalban, Rizal. It is initiated to reach out to communities that UPPGHMC and Bikers have interacted with in their activities
This project caters to the students’ needs for school supplies particularly notebooks. For every 100 pesos you donate, a set of notebooks and other school supplies will be given to a student. The more you give, the more students to receive school supplies.

Your 100 bucks will greatly help a child’s education.

Take part in ensuring students achieve their dreams, give a hundred and see them shine brighter.

for your donation pls contact:

Ms.Nona Bondoc (HRDD) 554-84-00 local 2031
Mr.Elmer Cayangan (ISO) 554-84-00 local 2038 (09174621326)
Mr.Boyet Busi(Property)544-84-00 local 2302

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http://groups.yahoo.com/group/uppghmc/

The Convo

I had a nice conversation with Maan yesterday. She was not toxic and so was I. I was waiting for 430pm at the pantry. She went there out of boredom. And we talked about TV.

TV is a very good way of saving up. I've been living in Manila for several years now and I always buy my food outside. I don't spend much time inside the boarding house because I don't have anything to do there and my landlady is so strict. So I roam the mall to kill time, have my dinner there. I will go home at night with a sore body from walking too much--stress from work and walking at the mall. As compared when I'm at home in Lipa, I can just stay inside our house for as long as my off duty. I am contented. I just ask my siblings to buy me Coke and for 36 bucks, I can share it with the whole family. I can eat whatever is on the table I don't have to think what to eat. I'm not really choosy when I'm at home--fried egg (as long as it's sunny side up) is fine by me.

Now I'm thinking. I want to save up. I don't really want to kill time at the mall anymore. I want to move up.

Jassy

I've been busy today. I have 15 admissions--I'm not really the one admitting them but I have to read their charts. Coming from a double dose, meaning a 2 days of no chart reading (long reading and deciphering doctors penmanship). But I was able to do everything that needed to be done.

I had an interesting conversation with a friend from work. Things are changing and I'm glad it's becoming all good now. I'm happy to be a part of several changes in my workplace.

I have to work again on weekends--that's my regular schedule. But that's okay.

Next week I will have my relaxation=)

Encouraging Thyself

Who are my friends? Where are my friends? I've been asking myself these questions for several months now.

It has been a struggle to continue with what I'm doing but I have no choice but to go on. A lot of people has been hurting me whether they are aware or not. I'm not being sensitive, or maybe I am. I hate this about myself. I'm an outcast in elementary making me to be ultra observant to people's actions in highschool. I considered myself "mature and strong". I was "above them all" because it seemed that I was the only one aware when a person was hurting another. I remembered always praying for the gift of strength, wisdom, and UNDERSTANDING.

In college, my very concern was whether I would fit in or not--whether I would have friends or not. Luckily, I met wonderful friends who love me all of me. But then, the difficulty of passing my course ate up most of my attention and so I forgot about my "ability".

But then several months ago, I found myself in that familiar situation. The ability to trust has been the focus. That and all of my real friends fleeing the country. It took months before I was able to adjust. And I'm still adjusting.

I've realized that it hurts to care but that's my nature and so it's natural to be hurt.

I hate to be alone. That's why I'm grateful for E because he is always there. Imagine if he isn't there, it's gonna be extra hard. But I'm beginning to accept and let go. Accept that there are just people who cannot understand. Karma exists. Let go of people I'm trying too hard to please but still push me away.

I'm grateful for every act of kindness. In this world full of bitches and assholes, lovely people still roam every once in a while and that helps. I'm still alone most of the time--I still see myself alone at the end of the day. I find myself going to the mall alone, watching the sunset alone, dropping by churches alone, walking the streets alone, but despite that I am at peace. I find myself readily forgiving people who hurt me. I can still laugh. I can still see lovely people and I try to show my appreciation. I may be aloof or antisocial for some but I'm the girl who will listen to philcares, guards...I try to reach out in my own way. I find comfort in their company. And those lucky ones can say "Mabait naman pala siya..." Yes I am. And there's more--I am also sincere. A little frank but sincere.

I found myself laughing some days ago over silly things (silly for me)...I haven't done that for quite a while. I find myself crying for different topics like religion, God and I realize that I can cry already because I am more in touch with myself. With that I know that I am now going to be okay.

I am happy again.

The Playlist

I've created a playlist at the sidebar...thanks to Russ I saw her playlist...gaya lang ako=)

Before the Outage

Just want to write and type away.

I don't know exactly what I'm feeling right now but I have a heavy heart...maybe because I'm sad knowing that my friends are not exactly around and I'm surrounded by heartless people.

It's good though that I'm finding peace during work. I can say that i have already adjusted. Maybe they also have adjusted to my quiet self.

Who knows maybe someday they can be my friends.

The Show

I just love this song=) Let's enjoy life has to bring. It always bring something good. Enjoy the show.

the show -

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
(I've tried) and I don't know why

Slow it down make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
'cuz it's too much
Yeah, it's a lot to be something I'm not

I'm a fool out of love
'cuz I just can't get enough

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone (I've tried) and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but don't show it
I can't figure it out it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

The sun is hot in the sky just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign and synchronize in time
It's a joke

Nobody knows they've got a ticket to that show
Yeah

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone
(I've tried) and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but don't show it
I can't figure it out it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

oh oh
Just enjoy the show
oh oh

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
life is a maze and love is a riddle
I dont know where to go I can't do it alone
(I've tried) and I don't know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out it's bringing me down
I know I've got to let it go and just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

dum de dum
dudum de dum

Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

It's May

And I'm still hoping to enjoy the rest of beach season=)

Too Long

I've been very busy that my life has become a bore even for me. But yesterday, I had a very nice afternoon at the baywalk. I'm really lucky to be working at a place that is very near a bay. Manila bay/baywalk has always been a happy place for me.

After going to Baywalk, I stopped by Malate Church, one of my favorite churches. Said a prayer, then I walked the streets of Malate. It felt good to get in touch with myself.

Life is beautiful.