Bits and Pieces

You know why people hate those who do well in life? It's not because they are jealous--it's because they seek justice--balance. And nature knows how to put balance. If you're rich, your family is maybe dysfunctional. If you have a good career, your love life sucks! If you're so rich that you can afford to have a dozen of offsprings, you can't bear a child. Life is balance.



I bought this body spray/cologne because I want to have a nice life just like her. It may be a bit odd but I have this ritual or belief that if your life is going in a monotonous routine or in a path you don't want to take, do something different. It's like trial and error. And I like her because she's not only super pretty but she's also nice. I don't envy, I admire.

Sunny Test

It's not the first time that I rode a boat. But every time I stepped on it's wooden floor, my feet got wobbly. It takes a lot of concentration to take my mind off my fear. Watching the sea for any sign of dolphins is fun. It causes me to reflect about life. It doesn't matter if I am fat. It doesn't matter if the people I want to be with, are not with me because in my own thoughts, I am forever with them.

Olympic Point is located in Tingloy, Batangas. We took the Anilao Port in going there. The place was not that developed but the sand is white and any beach which I could swim in is fine with me.

I should have had fun but God thought me something--He gave me an unexpected test. And I am realizing now that I can still go on with life with or without someone special. And that instead of being bitter about this, I am not. I welcome it because I know no matter what happens, God has a great plan for me. In the end, I know I would still be alone. In the end, God is the only one I can depend on.

Anyway, I miss being in love. It's been more than a year now. And I can't feel that I am in love. I do have someone but for some reason I am not in love. I want to be in love.

Busssssy....

I've been really busy. I still am. I will visit your blogs tomorrow.

Some

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Additional...am I a

The Choleric / Melancholic
The choleric-melancholic mixture combines two
passionate and persevering temperaments to create a strong leader with the
ability to envision a great plan of action — someone who is both meticulous and
strategic. The tendency of the choleric to make hasty, often sweeping judgments
will be tempered by the melancholic’s careful analysis and reflection. The
tendency of the melancholic to be moody, hyper-critical, and slow to act will be
counter-balanced by the optimism and practicality of the choleric. Thus, the
choleric-melancholic will be capable of decisive -- yet well-thought-out— action
and will be thoroughly productive.

If you are a choleric-melancholic, you will have a quick, analytical
mind, possibly with a great attention to detail, with a strong sense of order
and discipline. You will be more extraverted than a pure melancholic or a
melancholic-choleric, and you are able to take on more projects and accomplish
more things than a pure melancholic would be capable of. Furthermore, your
pragmatism will receive the additional value of noble and high ideals, so you
will likely be a very conscientious employee. You will likely have a
strong analytical mind, holding other people and institutions to high standards.
Both the melancholic and choleric temperaments retain their impressions for a
long time—so you will have the capacity to persevere in achieving your goals—as
well as holding onto to a grudge and being unforgiving!

Driven, yet self-sacrificing and a lover of truth, the
choleric-melancholic can accomplish great things. Without human and spiritual
formation, however, this mixture can result in an individual who is proud and
obstinate, with deep anger and resentment. They can be opinionated, critical,
and judgmental. The quick intelligence of the choleric combined with the
tendency to think they are always right, might make those with this temperament
mixture autocratic, moody, arrogant, and anti-social.

We imagine that St. Paul was choleric-melancholic: He was intense,
focused, driven. He was not one to value relationships above rules. He disagreed
with St. Peter on several occasions (as he wrote to the Galatians (2:11): “And
when Cephas came to Antioch, I opposed him to his face because he clearly was
wrong”) and even parted ways from his fellow missionary Barnabus, because
Barnabus wanted to bring along John Mark, whom Paul said had deserted them at
Pamphylia (Acts 15: 37-39).
If your temperament is choleric-melancholic, for
a better understanding of your temperament it is recommended that you read the
full descriptions of the choleric and melancholic.


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The Melancholic / Choleric

The melancholic-choleric is also a leader with the potential to
accomplish great works. However, where the choleric-melancholic is driven by the
challenge and the opportunity, the melancholic-choleric is inspired more by the
nobility of the task. The introverted nature of the melancholic, combined with
the focused and unempathic nature of the choleric, can result in an individual
who is highly motivated by noble ideals (even humanitarian ones), but who
prefers to work alone, rather than with people. The melancholic side of both
temperament mixtures results in the project being organized, ethical, and
high-minded, while the choleric aspect is the driving and demanding force.

If you are melancholic-choleric, you are somewhat less pragmatic (or
utilitarian) than a pure choleric, just as persevering and determined, and with
a greater emphasis on the ideal. Likely to be motivated by the most noble and
demanding of causes, you are capable of founding a humanitarian society,
composing a symphony, founding a school, or discovering a cure. You are
organized, perfectionist, introspective, driven, and moody (though less so than
a pure melancholic). You will be less active than a choleric-melancholic and
less extraverted, more internally focused.

But your weaknesses include a tendency to excessive self-criticism and
criticism of others, being dismissive or overly judgmental, exhibiting a
tendency to self-absorption, and possessing an untrustful and controlling
nature. You tend to be inflexible, can bear grudges for a long time and may be
prone to discouragement. A melancholic-choleric who is not attentive to his
spiritual life, and does not keep his eye assiduously on the truly important
things of life can become a cross to those around him, through his nit-picking,
perfectionism, disdain, bitterness, resentfulness, spitefulness when crossed,
and even haughtiness.

Excuses

Because I had to attend to some of my responsibilites, I stopped being a blogger for a while. Aside from that, I also got curious causing me to tinker with XML codes. I didn't expect it to be messy and though my site is still a mess, it's better than yesterday.

summer heat has come at its peak. Salty air surrounds the whole Manila which makes the environment even more humid and hot. This kind of heat made me irritated and itchy. If this condition made me feel this way, what more could my brother feel. This is one of thoae moments that I feel awful because people I love do not feel okay. But I'm glad because he's taking steps to take care of himself.

These past few weeks, I often hear negative things about me coming from the people closest to me. So I guess, what they've said are quite true. They may think that I am unaware of myself but the truth is I am so much aware of myself. I know my weaknesses and though I know they mean well, it somethimes hurt to hear those comments.

It's official. I am again venturing in my future. I am hoping for the best.

Grrr....

Wtf?! It's been days since I tried tinkering with the new blogger code and so far my site is kinda messed up. Will be back with a longer post.

Could this be...

It's the last day of my vacation and I am tasked to watch over Nanay at the hospital. What a way to end my vacation. I know after this, I won't be able to go home often because I have to do what I have to do.

Spent my time with a relative and we talked about life. How imperfect life is, but if we look at it, it's perfectly imperfect.

I want to watch Gilmore Girls, Veronica Mars, and Grey's Anatomy but I guess I won't be able to do this for a very long time.

This is the way to my dreams.

Holy Week

How's your vacation? Have you spent it reflecting on God's love for you?

Last year my Holy week has been really different from last year. Last year I was trying to help foreigners about their sexual problems but this year, I was at home watching dvds and dawdling.

I should be happy now because I am far from the messed up girl last year but I don't think I am really any different from last year. However, last year I really fell hard because of that failure that changed my life. This year, I was seeing another opportunity and I really hope it will wok out.

I amstill in a state of confusion and depression--the bitchy kind of depression like I don't care what you think I will continue to pity mysely because of the other aspects in my life. Angry and depressed. Bad news! Adding up to these is worrying about my brother. I hope things will get better soon.

But I was able to attend Good Friday's procession and there were at least 10,000 Lipenos who attended the procession. I was so proud of them.

And Black Saturday was about adventure going to Tagaytay through The Talisay route--lots of zigzags and uphills. Scary while overlooking the Taal lake like you can really touch it. Then after that scary ride, we went around Tagaytay eating at that cheap restaurant which wasn't cheap at all. And 100 peso parking fee for just 11 minutes. And that Paradizoo experience sana but we decided not to go there because of long line and expensive entrance fee. Then we also tried the Mushroom Burger and it was okay but I am not really into mushrooms--I am even afraid of them. We finally went to Calleruega. The place was beautiful. The chapel, dormitories, halls, flowers, sheep, stations of the cross--in Ifugao inspired artistry, and most of all the falls and the hanging bridge. We had a great time crossing the bridge--not really because I was afraid of crossing the bridge. It made me lose my balance. Roaming that place is good for the soul and for the body.

Betty

I am into watching tv series...I've bought dvds already worth thousands (and I bought them at Quiapo) so I can say that I have a lot to watch. Dvd marathon is fun but after watching seasons of the show I don't think I will ever watch them again when I come across them again. But there are shows I know that I will never get tired of watching. One of those shows is Ugly Betty.

I've watched its Colombian counterpart but the American version is better because I can relate to the character as far as my looks and my love story are concern.


Ugly Betty makes me laugh out loud just like scrubs. One of the episodes I like is during Halloween where Betty dresses as a butterfly and his boyfriend Walter as a butterfly catcher. They both look geeky and I really think that pairing together makes them a loser. Walter is okay but he looks like a caterpillar or a worm to me. Sorry but seeing him makes me think of a caterpillar. I like Betty-Henry pair more.

catching a butterfly

Betty Butterfly

Walter

Betty-Henry

Okay

Researching for the dvds I'm going to buy later to be brought home this long holiday.

Ugly Betty
HOuse
Grey's Anatomy
Gilmore Girls

What else?

This day has been really bad for me...at work. Ceftriaxone gave me a hard time. Long story.

I am hoping to watch this or anything like this.

TV

I heard a wonderful news and you know instead of jumping for joy--I cried. I've suffered from lost of disappointments over the past year and I just couldn't believe that something good can happen in my life. I mean I just think that the world hates me not to give me what I want but took pity on me by giving me what I need. I have everything I need but I can't seem to have what I want. And that wonderful news is one of those wants in my life.

I won't believe it until it happens.

Anyway, have you seen Beyonce and Shakira's music video? They're both great in there and I like them both. Hip-shakers! And oh I tried doing my own dance (if you can call that a dance) and glad to say I can still do it. I am encouraged. I guess there is still hope for me.

There are lots of good music nowadays, mostly hip hop. Hehe... I still love rock and the lyrics of it but right now I just need a music to keep me going to achieve what I want.

Anyway, I come across a show in INK (Japanese station) and art and circus were tackled there. Circus tricks are incorporated in plays and other artistic show in US, Japan, France. I don't really understand the whole documentary because it's in Japanese but I had ideas through pictures and some English interviews. I hope I can watch one of those.