Some Things to Smile About

Say something nice about the sites and their owner that you've linked. How did you get to their site. What you like about their site or about them. I encourage everyone to do this, too. To those who will read about them here, I don't mean to offend you in any way (if in case you are offended). The following are just my opinions. And everything that you will read are seen positively by me. No harm meant.

I just want to make it clear that everyone I've linked here are either good-looking, interesting, or cool. I am not a lesbian so don't worry about me thinking you're pretty or beautiful. It's just an honest appreciation of beauty. And I just have deep respect to anyone who care to share themselves to others. So to everyone who has been actively blogging, THANK YOU because I am learning a lot from what you are sharing to the worldwideweb.

Abbie: http://abbieunreal.blogspot.com

• i got to her site thru russ.
• she's beautiful based on the pictures on her layout. so i read on her blog.
• i found out that she's not only pretty but she also has a strong personality.
• she is confident.
• her friday gimmicks with friends
• stories about her trip and work

Abbie: http://queengambit.blogspot.com

• got to her thru snuffie.
• she's really a writer.
• intelligent
• unique facts about her on her sidebar
• i like the way she writes.
• i like her "bitchy" take on life.
• strong personality
• it's like "what abbie wants, abbie gets..."

Acey: http://superace.blogspot.com

• kind
• idealistic
• i like her layout and the butterfly that flies around her site
• her heroes

Ala: http://ala-ism.pansitan.net

• TV personality
• a very good writer, she writes vividly.
• very artistic...talented in music, art, literature
• i am always learning from what she writes about
• funny
• i like how she never wastes her talents

Alla: http://alla.scrufus.net

• one of the first two blogs I've read and loved.
• i like the expressions she's using...
• she doesn't write about her philosophies, she won't argue or give a sermon. she just writes down about her experiences.
• she's pretty, too.
• she's from UP.

Bhelayskie: http://prinsestar.blogspot.com

• she's pretty
• i like the color of her site
• she's nice
• still young...what's it like to be young and pretty and in highschool?
• music lover

Bulalakaw: http://bulalakaw.blogdrive.com

• he's from Dubai.
• i like his stories about his family and his daughter.
• he's not blogging anymore...too bad!

Camille: http://camsprats.multiply.com

• TV personality
• fan niya ako
• I look like her kase when I was young...hehe...

Carl

• batchmate and schoolmate
• i like her thoughts and stories
• reviews--movies and books
• stories about work

Cathy: http://no-angel.blogdrive.com

• got to her site thru Alla
• I like her site, the navigation and design
• she's also nice and real.
• she's also from UP

Ciara: http://ciaring.blogspot.com

• got to her site thru russ
• i like the style and design of her site
• her stories are real about life and work
• i like her movie reviews
• she's often mistaken to be ciara sotto...hehe...

Cheenee: http://princessacheenee.blogspot.com

• i like her many layouts
• i like her take on life because it is geared towards the love of God
• stories about her friends, family, ACIL, her studies
• she's from Ateneo--I have deep respect for Ateneans.
• her smile
• her photoshop abilities
• she's a princess...:)

Kai: http://blenched.blogspot.com

• one of my latest links
• i like her layout
• her stories
• she's a filipina by heart...:)
• one of my favorite blogger

Kaye: http://kaye92.blogdrive.com

• one of the first two blogs I've encountered, read, and loved (the other one is Alla's)
• this blog inspired me to start my own
• known her from school--UP
• orgmate and classmate (irregular ako eh)
• i dig her stories about UP Pharm (I can really relate) and her UST Med life...med student wannabe kase ako.
• a very good writer
• artistic and fashionista
• intelligent

Em: http://thymolblue.blogdrive.com

• known her from school
• orgmate and classmate
• blockmate ni Kaye
• she can be nice
• she can be bitchy
• i like her many opinions on life
• she's also smart and pretty.

Chocoholicprincess: http://www.xanga.com/chocoholicprincess

• blog of Bubbles Paraiso
• TV personality
• she's nice
• pretty
• loves shopping...get so many tips from her

Deb: http://summerbliss21.blogspot.com

• love her layout now
• it's like the layout for someone who has mature gracefully
• i like her views on life and the lessons that she has learned
• it's really nice reading her posts.

Shai: http://sassychique.tk

• like her layouts--pink, cute
• nice and friendly
• she rested for a while from blogger but it's good that she's back!

FJL: http://fjlathome.blogspot.com

• got to her site thru janeca
• lots of information about literature and UK
• nice layout
• love reading her posts

Hanagirl: http://hanagirl.blogspot.com

• a great dancer
• she's also pretty
• i like her stories about her life and work and about her business
• this is how 30something women should be--graceful and passionate...
• like her layouts

Hanmae: http://hanmae.pinaychiq.com/wp

• like her layout
• the navigations
• she's from cebu!

Ingrid: http://www.xanga.com/fallenbutflying

• a model
• got to her site thru ala
• fallen but flying
• a Filipino by heart
• learn a lot from her about the many places of Europe
• friends and family matters
• also like her xanga friends--smoothalize and mi_ca

Ivy: http://ivygurlalush.blogspot.com

• a nurse
• her layouts
• she's also nice and friendly but she doesn't update her blog anymore

KC: http://kooki.multiply.com

• TV personality
• pretty
• nice...really...she is...
• many pictures

Janeca: http://www.sidewinding.blogspot.com

• got to her site thru snuffie
• a very good writer
• figurative narration about life
• her way of using euphemisms
• her layout...i like it better now
• her style of writing
• she's one of my favorite blogger

Lhei: http://bawalangmalungkot.blogspot.com

• personal friend
• I encouraged her to blog but she stopped updating.

Lica: http://www.magicpurple.com

• she's pretty
• i like her layouts
• she's a nursing student just like my brother
• she's also funny.
• i always check her blog

Maan: http://pagemaster21.blogspot.com

• i like the stuff written on her "Interesting" corner
• analysis of life
• studious

Micster: http://micster.pansitan.net

• her layout
• got to her site thru pansitan.net

Naomi: http://www.naomituazon.com

• her strong personality
• her crazy, funny stories
• a nurse
• she's in canada
• i like her layout
• natutuwa ako palaging magbasa ng mga sinusulat niya parang palagi akong may natututunan kung paano maging astig

Queenz: http://queenz.4t.com

• her layout
• the music
• her stories...nursing and her family
• i like her little fonts

Ria: http://riadenaga.blogspot.com

• the music...it's scary...it's like from a scary fairy tale
• the stars that twinkle in her site

Pobs: http://pobs.blogdrive.com

• she's from Dubai
• she's nice and friendly
• i like "Why the wedding ring should be put on the fourth finger?"
• and also the "trials or blessings"
• she's also one of those wonderful people that somehow made me feel better during those times that I was still getting over my previous relationship

RoniBats: www.ronibats.com

• he's from UP at UP med pa
• I've been seeing him around UP (nasa loob ng UP ang workplace ko)
• genius
• quite good-looking hehe
• fan siya ng Hale (good choice)
• fan din siya ng Googoo Dolls (pareho kami)
• I love reading about his experience in Finland. Sa kanya ko nalaman ito:

Weirdo nga pala ang araw dito. Dahil spring, sumisikat ang araw ng
alas-kwatro, at lumulubog ng alas-onse ng gabi! Oo, noong unang linggo ko dito,
gusto kong hatakin ang araw. Parang-awa mo na, lumubog ka na, gusto ko nang
matulog. At magigising ako na ang taas-taas ng araw, akala ko late na ako sa
eskwela, pero pagtingin ko sa relo, alas-singko pa lang.

Russ: http://superwonderwomanruss.blogspot.com

• very nice person and layout
• a smart and observant writer
• poetic in her description
• a happy person
• so blessed with life
• nice and neat
• she has perfect skin based on her pics
• she's one of my favorite blogger

Sangi: http://www.crazysangigurl.blogspot.com

• friendly
• her funny posts
• call center and Davao
• her love for her nieces and nephews

Tin: http://beachytin.blogspot.com

• schoolmate nung highschool
• like her writing style
• her views on life
• she helped me cope with life after that breakup
• she likes beaches
• a role model

Trizprototype: http://www.xanga.com/trizprototype

• got to her site thru chocoholicprincess
• she's pretty and she leads a glamorous life
• learning a lot about fashion
• she's from la salle

Vanessa: http://vcaroline.blogspot.com

• she's from sweden
• she's also nice

Yayam: http://theyakkingmachine.blogspot.com

• she's like her sister cheenee when it comes to her views on life, family, and God
• i like her funny stories in school especially the story of that boy and the prom
• her photoshop abilities--funky, cool
• pictures
• learning from her about gadgets and cool sites
• she's nice
• i like her smile

Yen: http://yen.splitsys.com

• i like her stories
• she can be nice and bitchy
• it took me a while to realize where she lives--Qatar
• kapitbahay ng school ko nung college ang school niya nung college

Admiration

Sir Aldrin came into my thoughts this morning and I couldn't stop thinking how he affected my life. He was my professor in college. The first clinical pharmacist in the country. He is not only smart but also good looking. He looks like Aga Muhlach. Because of this, a lot of girls became hysterical whenever he would pass by. He would never fail to hear the "Hi Sirs" with matching tucking of hair beneath their ears and the fluttering of their eyelashes. During his class, he would just smile and everyone would be intently listen or swoon which caused him to put his hands up in the air as if to say, "Calm down girls...I know I'm good-looking...but what can I do..." Hehe...Which will make me laugh whenever I think about that and whenever I see other girls do that in front of him. They are just too obvious. And I know that Sir isn't that dense. He knows that. And so just to be nice, he would call you and greet you by name. He's great with names, by the way.

For the record, I never had a crush on him. But I admire him deeply. My type is more geared towards the likes of Richard Gomez--the tall, dark, and handsome type. So my admiration goes beyond his good looks. As I've mentioned, he's smart. He really has a talent on communication. I get to like clinical pharmacy because of him. I signed up for a clinical pharmacy training/internship for 3 months before, under his supervision because I got interested in the program. Not because I want to see him but because I want to learn from him. Unlike most of my classmates which signed up just so they could be with him everyday.

He also used to be the chief pharmacist in our workplace but not anymore. But I see him there once in a while.

Bakit ko nga ba siya naisip? Ewan. Basta I definitely smiled upon remembering him.

Meant For Me

It started with seeing that guy doctor who checked on my breasts several months ago. And then that cutie chinese doctor who went to our area just to correct some entries on their logbook. And Maam Cata's words.

He is definitely not the guy for me.

God is still working it out--to give me the best. And what I'm going through right now is just a test or a mission. And I am definitely becoming a better person...better than before. Stronger. I don't know. But maybe better.

Sun is Shining

Everything turned out great. Problems at work were given solution and I got the grade I deserve. VS it is! I am really thankful. God is really good. Right now, there are hundreds on my list but I don't want to think too much about them. I just want to rest from thinking for a while. But then, another challenge is thrown my way. But I can take it. God is with me all the way. I trust Him.

Wowowee!!!

No I don't watch Wowowee because I prefer to watch Eat Bulaga. Eat Bulaga , for me, gives real entertainment. Entertainment means laughter! But today, I asked my Mom to watch it because my relatives from the states are there. I'm sure she'll see them on tv.

I'm still in the middle of my dark days. The background color of this suits me again. I remember last year my background is black when I was going through the dark days of my life. Dark days for me means problems at work. The worst thing about my profession can cause my dreams go crashing down. But I still have my family. And I trust God with my life. Everyday, I surrender my life to Him. And now, I feel thankful for what I have right now...problems, blessings because it is a fact that we don't own anything in this world. There is no permanent thing on earth. Life is temporary. And that everything we thought we have can be gone in a second. That's scary. But then God also has the capabilities to make things possible. For Him nothing is impossible. I am not perfect but everyday I try to follow Him. Everyday, I am trying to clear my conscience. Workwise, my conscience is clear.

I am also finding it really hard to be an adult. Yesterday, I went to Bulacan to go to this place because I have to do something. I was awake at 5 in the morning and I just came from a PM shift. Dragging Raymond along, I look for this certain person but we could not find him. Then we went to Novaliches but he was still not there. We went home (in the province) tired and muddy because it was raining yesterday. It was tiring but I was laughing because of our misadventure. Raymond was pissed off because he was the one carrying his and my luggage but he couldn't help but laugh a little. Then today, I thought I could rest a little but my Mom asked me to do some errands at the city hall. I was bombarded with instructions from the city hall people. I went to several offices. In the end I have to go home and report to my Mom. I have to do the laundry later.

Raymond is the only person that can give me a tremendous amount of courage and inspiration. But I know that if it becomes worst, he will also leave me.

I can't find comfort at work, at home, or in love...sleep in the only way I have my peace. I am scared but I know that God will never leave me.

And if you're thinking that I'm so down right now, don't worry. I am not. I am scared but I can take it. Whatever or whichever, or whoever that doesn't kill me will only make me stronger. But if you can pray for me, then I'll be really, really grateful. :)

I will leave you with this. I got this from Lica's and it makes me smile.

No man will ever claim you unless he claims you from Me. For I reserved a man
for you, who has My heart and loves Me even more than he will love you. For I
wontgive you unless he asks you from Me. He's asleep. Don't wake him, he's busy
for Me, for My Kingdom. Soon you will know him, but in My perfect timing. You're
My princess, My daughter. Let NO prince claim you unless he asks you from My
hand, for I am your Father, the King of kings. You, My princess are worth
waiting for. I love you!
-Jesus

Sleepless

Maybe, it's the stress from travelling or the lack of sleep. But I feel so cold, and abandoned. I feel like I'm losing my life--figuratively of course. My work is my only redemption from not thinking so much of my worries when it comes to my family and the other people I love. Problems with work seems easy when I know that I can lean on my family. But when my family is the one threatened--I don't know where to turn to.

My head is aching from thinking and worrying too much. Tears are the product of my only outlet.

I can laugh. I can do my work. I can even share a joke. But I can't smile right now.

Just when you're thinking that things will finally work out for you, something will happen to screw up everything you've hoped for. But still...I'll try to build again my dreams.

Sorry for this sad post.

It's a good day after all

Yesterday, after my 2 workmates stood me up, I decided to watch Pirates of the Caribbean 2. I really liked the first movie so I have high expectations from movie 2. As usual, I was entertained by the movie. Capt. Jack Sparrow is still the loony guy, Will Turner is still Will. Elizabeth Swann looked more like Keira Knightley if you know what I mean. But I hated Elizabeth's character because she is still the damsel in distress. I guess, people can't change that fast (in real life) so they show it in movies, too. Some good points are the appearance of Will's father and that pirate whom they fought with on the first movie.

The sceneries are also beautiful. Scary yet calming. Calm rivers, weird creatures along the riverbanks. Houses along the river. It felt like home for me. Maybe because the houses in the province looks like that when there's no current of electricity. I also like the part where people from that scary, calming place held candles while Will, Elizabeth and the rest of the pirates went back to Tia Dalma. Tia Dalma is also very funny and loony. She and Jack Sparrow look good together. Hehe...

The ending is...what can I say...MATRIX 2.

But it's worth your bucks. So watch it!

Another good news for me. It's not yet final but I finally see a crack of hope from my walls of adversities. I am really praying about this and I hope it works out. Another dream on the path to coming true! God gives us talents to be honed. Use the abilities that God gave us. If there's a will there's a way. And if all else fails, remember that surrendering to God's will is the best way to live.

Alive

Stuck here in the metro. I still have to bear 5 more days and then I'm off to my hometown.

I hate the streets when it's muddy and raining. Floods, rats, cockroaches. Basically, my mood is so low. It seems that every plans I have run into their obstacles. Still thinking what to do to make me feel better.

I hate to be alone. I want to be with my family.

Stormy Days

Tuwing buwan ng Hulyo, palagi na lang nagkakabagyo dito sa Pinas. Kahapon lumusong ako sa baha. Ayaw ko sana eh kaso break time na namin at ang lakas ng ulan. Walang pagkain sa workplace namin. Nagpalit naman ako ng damit, nagtsinelas at lumabas na. Ayun, malakas nga ang ulan kaya umaagos din ang tubig. nabasa ang paa ko! No choice andun na ako. So tumuloy na ako. Kumuha ng pagkain sa dining hall at bumalik sa area namin. Pagkadating na pagkadating ko, naghugas agad ako ng mga paa ko. Mega TIDE at SAFEGUARD pa ha at saka alcohol. Since may sugat ako sa paa dahil sa pagtanggal ko sa ingrown ko (yuck!) napilitan din akong bumili ng Doxin 100 para prophylaxis sa leptospirosis! Awa naman ng Diyos, eto buhay pa ako.

Kaya ngayon, leather shoes ang isinuot ko para hindi agad mababasa ang mga paa ko. At saka bumili na ako ng food para hindi ko na kailangang lumabas para kumain.

Sabi ni Kai hindi raw maview itong site ko sa mozilla...paano ko ba magagawa yun? Tips anyone?

Just a Start

Well...I finally join here. It's the start of fulfilling some of my dreams.

Been busy...will visit your blogs soon!

Scrub Suits

Good thing Ate Myra brought lots of scrub suits. Now I won't have to buy one.

Anyway, I read my entries on July 2005 and by the way I wrote about life, I seemed to be someone wise and someone who really knows life. I was more mature then. I asked myself how did it happen? I am supposed to be more mature now than before. I have several answers and I know that they are the real answers and I am not just suffering from memory loss.

The challenges given to me back then is different from what I am handling now. I'm back to basic right now. New challenges. New lessons. So I cannot really be sure if I still know the lessons of before. And I am not in pain now. When you're in pain, wisdom emerges. There is beauty in pain. And for sure, strength and wisdom will come out when the situation calls for them.

Last night I had a fun time playing with Gab. Gab, my 2nd degree nephew, is the favorite baby of Raymond. Last night he was not with me. And when I carried Gab he was really staring at me, like he was trying to figure out who I was. Maybe, he was also missing Raymond. Anyway, Gab is still cute and he made my night fun.

Dreaming and Loving

From now on, I will live my dream. Life is too short to wait for the "right" moment to act on my dreams which have always been a dream eversince I can remember. I am excited. I really hope that all of my dreams will now be true.

Speaking of dreams, I have this long time crush and he's on several of my dreams (panaginip). What's weird is that in all of my dreams about him, we are always happy, sweet, and in love with each other. But in reality, we're just friends. He has other interests and I am loving someone else. But I like having those dreams. They keep me sane. And I don't think by having those dreams I'm being unfaithful to my bf. They're just dreams.

I've changed the colors of this blog. I'm bored.

I also realized something about myself: If I see or feel something wrong, I will surely rant about it the first time it happens. Maybe not directly but I will surely let it out.

Self-check: I still know how to depend on myself. But I still love him. And I am happy because of that. If loving him is all wrong, then I don't know. Maybe I am doomed. But I think there's nothing wrong with loving someone who loves you more. Just know the limitation and always say no to the invitations of evil and maybe, just maybe, everything will be all right.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Beware!

I know how to get hurt, how to be broken by someone I really love, how to cry, how to take the pain. BUT I don't know yet how to break someone's heart. I don't want to do it to anyone but I think I have to.

I don't know. I am clouded with confusion. A lot of people surrounding me are bombarding me with ideas. Materialistic, logical ideas. Pero ewan ko.

Let me be specific...I've been thinking about marriage and my career and my future for the longest itme now. Here's one of my conversation/argument with my sister one night when I asked her to accompany me in our kitchen because I am afraid of the dark...

Sister: Hindi ka pa pwedeng mag-asawa. Hindi ka pa marunong...(sa buhay)
Me: Bakit ikaw pwede na?
Sister: Oo naman. Marunong na akong maglaba, mamalantsa, magluto at maghanapbuhay.
Me: Ows?!

Wait...wait...wait...my beloved sister. If those are your criteria for marriage then I think you're in BIG trouble. If knowing how to do the laundry, ironing clothes, cooking, and working are your criteria, then I can say that I can marry already. But I think you forget other issues that should be consider in marriage. Issues like how to raise a kid, how to be pregnant, how to take care of others, how to earn to send your kids to school--those practical stuff. And what about self-fulfilment?

Hehe...with the way my mind works right now...I think I'll be an oldmaid.

I do want to get married. I long to be loved. I long to be taken care of. But I think I still haven't met that guy who will do those things for me. Sad to say...but I'm not losing hope. Ate Emily is right. Yesterday I spent time talking with her in their place in Sta. Mesa. We had choosing the right guy as our topic. She's right in saying that I should give myself time to think what I really want and who I want. There are many things that we should consider in choosing a guy. And every woman should first use their head then their heart. Love can be learned. And I think she's right. I do want to get married at the right time.

And also yesterday, I went with them to Chinese Genral Hospital to visit my first grandson (yes I'm alread a grandmother...2nd degree nga lang...) Shawn Denzel. He's sick. There is something wrong with his lungs, blood, and heart. He's a cute baby and I hope he makes it. That baby is going to be a fighter. At a young age, he's already fighting for his life. We arrived in his room while a nurse was injecting (through a heplock) drugs in his tiny body...and he never cried. Matapang!

Anyway, I'm still waiting for that moment when I can stir my career towards another direction. I hope God grant me that.

Money Pakyaw

Manny Pacquiao won yesterday! He deserved to win but Larios fought well. It was really a good fight.

I went home last Saturday and coincidentally, there was a despedida party over at Ate Auring's. I went there of course, and sang through videoke. I just love singing even if my voice sounded like a cat. Some of my cousins went there, too and we planned our next Saturday. My cousin Myra will be coming here from the states and we want to bond with her and her sister Jackie. I think we will go to Tagaytay for a picnic. It would have been a fun time for us but my cousins had other better things to do. They just wanted to stay at home instead of spending time with us.

Yesterday, I spent my day watching the Mano-a-Mano with Raymond, Kristel, Chap, Ardee, Clement, and Mary Rose. I admire the Mexicans when it comes to boxing.

Ate Maritess and her family will be leaving tomorrow and with that, I just want to say thank you to them for the fun time they'd given us.

Anyway, my days were spent thinking, as always, and I observe some things...

• What's with the rich people? They're given a lot. They can do a lot of things but they're wasting those blessings. They are not using them to help those in need.
• And what's with people? They cannot be happy unless they become rich. I think that even if you don't have much materially, but you have peace of mind, and you are happy with what you have and you make the most out of what is given to you, then you are the most blessed person in this world.
• It's really proven...I am born to think differently. But acting differently (according to what I'm thinking) is another. I am open to ideas.
• People should not think that I am wasting my talents just because I am stuck here in the Philippines. I can accept things and I can make the most of what I have.
• I also admit that I still don't know what i really want to do with my life and so I go on trying things to see if it will work for me. I can say that the journey is worth it. I am becoming happier in the process. They say that interesting people are those who don't know what they want in life and so they go on trying to figure out everything. Maybe, I am interesting. I like myself so I guess that makes me interesting.

Korina Sanchez' words stuck with me when she was interviewed at The Buzz yesterday. She said that no matter what people say what and who you are, you shouldn't really believe them. You should have a great knowledge of who you are. You should know who you really are. You shouldn't be persuaded to what others say you are. It's a blessing that I was able to hear her say that. I needed those words to realize something about what that one "concern" person told me. I am still the winner after all.